My personal Blog: Nicola A.K.A. Nilly | 19 | 2x12 Mil |17 piercings | Leeds| Leeds college of Art | studying BA (Hons) Visual Communication | Photographer/Artist/Designer | Single | My Photography&Art - My Modifications - My Face - blunt(s) burningTumblr (3.0; @monkeytard)http://monkeytard.tumblr.com/<img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/71d2e530669ef1cf8508350298ece9cc/tumblr_mn13w6vFlQ1rktvz2o1_400.gif"/><br/><br/>http://monkeytard.tumblr.com/post/50792168058http://monkeytard.tumblr.com/post/50792168058Sun, 19 May 2013 01:43:23 -0400<p>i fucking hate the fact that i can feel so upset, and want to vent it all out to someone and break down and let them see that vulnerable side of me, so i don&#8217;t seem like i&#8217;m faking it and so that i can let it all out. but i know as soon as i try and open up to anyone, the smiles on my face, i&#8217;m making it seem humorous and not serious at all, putting my guard up so they don&#8217;t see how broken i am in that moment of time. And really it doesn&#8217;t help at all, because i need to cry and i need to cuddle someone and have them really reassure me that it&#8217;ll all be ok again, but i cant stop myself from putting that guard up, and in the end i still need all that. I still need to really vent and break down and let it all out. But its trapped inside the walls that i&#8217;ve built.</p>http://monkeytard.tumblr.com/post/50728697615http://monkeytard.tumblr.com/post/50728697615Sat, 18 May 2013 10:11:19 -0400<img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/7027d5daf44bbb963368acb274ede181/tumblr_mmxkyzYAU01qeld8so1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/><p>Up n ready at 6am this morning. Now sat in Uni… Had time to put effort in today</p>http://monkeytard.tumblr.com/post/50638922401http://monkeytard.tumblr.com/post/50638922401Fri, 17 May 2013 03:04:11 -0400<img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/526d4c9873bbaf8fbf6476ebe0e90ef8/tumblr_mmwlsdSL9z1qlka8ko1_250.gif"/><br/><br/><p>Bahahaaa</p>http://monkeytard.tumblr.com/post/50623658510http://monkeytard.tumblr.com/post/50623658510Thu, 16 May 2013 22:25:22 -0400<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_lw505jnOQr1qcxp0ao1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/><p>in love with that dress…</p>http://monkeytard.tumblr.com/post/50623216766http://monkeytard.tumblr.com/post/50623216766Thu, 16 May 2013 22:19:50 -0400<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/351a561f2a6492beddc544be4b9bb9a1/tumblr_mi3g4dSpHu1qzeglvo1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/>http://monkeytard.tumblr.com/post/50556632523http://monkeytard.tumblr.com/post/50556632523Thu, 16 May 2013 00:33:29 -0400<img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/0b220eb789b0d8e2d59e3b0cc3833051/tumblr_mgwnpaNJny1rvfns3o1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/>http://monkeytard.tumblr.com/post/50556564183http://monkeytard.tumblr.com/post/50556564183Thu, 16 May 2013 00:32:22 -0400<img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/b6d21a1280d143530a20f8324f4263eb/tumblr_mlbv4twm6E1rsez3ro1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/>http://monkeytard.tumblr.com/post/50556523258http://monkeytard.tumblr.com/post/50556523258Thu, 16 May 2013 00:31:44 -0400<img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/dc5728f3d27b1ee8b160a07f322e6469/tumblr_mhfru6y2ae1rdxjhlo1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/>http://monkeytard.tumblr.com/post/50556466928http://monkeytard.tumblr.com/post/50556466928Thu, 16 May 2013 00:30:50 -0400<img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/19648c1b57092dd5f229893e1ab0d0a1/tumblr_mm4b9l5f821rs8w78o1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/>http://monkeytard.tumblr.com/post/50556391893http://monkeytard.tumblr.com/post/50556391893Thu, 16 May 2013 00:29:34 -0400<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_m91f83suKk1qieq9mo1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/>http://monkeytard.tumblr.com/post/50556377849http://monkeytard.tumblr.com/post/50556377849Thu, 16 May 2013 00:29:19 -0400<img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/79e4cee56ed800bc71b1dcebf4ac99fd/tumblr_mmug4zwnAG1qeld8so1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/><p>Some more character illustrations #illustration #uni #art #design #characters #colour #inks #drawing</p>http://monkeytard.tumblr.com/post/50497009799http://monkeytard.tumblr.com/post/50497009799Wed, 15 May 2013 10:26:58 -0400artcolourinksillustrationdesigncharactersunidrawing<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/814dc940ba041959f9776f27e9290194/tumblr_mmug4saQub1qeld8so1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/><p>Been doing some more illustrations #characterdesign #illustration #drawing #art #design</p>http://monkeytard.tumblr.com/post/50497004966http://monkeytard.tumblr.com/post/50497004966Wed, 15 May 2013 10:26:52 -0400characterdesigndesignartdrawingillustration<img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/c6c8c74b248eb3dd1d06f5bd9d9f82b1/tumblr_mmug46zhMg1qeld8so1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/><p>Straightened my hair for the first time in 2 years the other day… Looks so much longer when it’s straight</p>http://monkeytard.tumblr.com/post/50496989902http://monkeytard.tumblr.com/post/50496989902Wed, 15 May 2013 10:26:29 -0400<img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/a51377c9477470a45a9ec5bf10f5e2bd/tumblr_mm9ua4x1Sl1qigj88o1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/>http://monkeytard.tumblr.com/post/50435092099http://monkeytard.tumblr.com/post/50435092099Tue, 14 May 2013 15:03:53 -0400<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/93e296d2b2d719dd2a9e13c235333165/tumblr_mmhgcl5tuT1qjipyqo1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/>http://monkeytard.tumblr.com/post/50435022252http://monkeytard.tumblr.com/post/50435022252Tue, 14 May 2013 15:02:45 -0400<img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_m95yskjVfl1qc01njo1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/><p><a class="tumblr_blog" href="http://thelovenotebook.tumblr.com/post/50340357426/love-life-and-personal-quotes" target="_blank"> </a></p>http://monkeytard.tumblr.com/post/50434934791http://monkeytard.tumblr.com/post/50434934791Tue, 14 May 2013 15:01:26 -0400<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_mdmg1io9841qkk8s1o1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/>http://monkeytard.tumblr.com/post/50434158529http://monkeytard.tumblr.com/post/50434158529Tue, 14 May 2013 14:48:34 -0400<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/4a73de85a169d46b82fff5f589605511/tumblr_mmbse342mE1rkbqbko1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/>http://monkeytard.tumblr.com/post/50433819557http://monkeytard.tumblr.com/post/50433819557Tue, 14 May 2013 14:42:54 -0400<img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_mb1aua2Stc1re9hfvo1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/>http://monkeytard.tumblr.com/post/50416586328http://monkeytard.tumblr.com/post/50416586328Tue, 14 May 2013 08:40:55 -0400